Friday, June 18, 2010

Beautiful Minds Laid to Waste

I watched the Behind the Music episode that featured Earl "DMX" Simmons yesterday and it made me feel odd. I have also been moderately keeping up with Scott "KiD CuDi" Mescudi and his latest drug debacle. Drugs seem to go hand in hand with most entertainers today; it is almost like if they aren't doing drugs something is wrong. However, I listed these 2 rappers because both of them have the ability to effect change in my mood while/after listening to them.

I purposely don't listen to DMX today because he makes me SO angry. He is one of my favorite rappers, hands down, because he always gave 500% when he rapped. Whether it was on some hyped up flow or it was smooth and mellowed out...he made me feel. It reminded me of the first time I had listened to a Tupac "2Pac" Shakur song...I FELT what he was saying and it made me want to hear more. When DMX came out, I had just graduated from high school and was nowhere near the maturity level I have today. I felt I controlled my anger but I still allowed the slightest, most insignificant things to set me off and increase my blood pressure. It wasn't until I had some murderous thoughts (I'm being so serious) that I realized some music should not be ingested by me. Music never really had that kind of grasp on me but for some reason, Dark Man X ALWAYS took me to the point of no return.

So when I watched the Behind the Music and saw that one of my favorite rappers is in fact, a crackhead, imagine my shock and horror. Don't read this like I'm hella late to the news that he was on drugs. I'm talking about...did you really KNOW he was a crack addict since the age of 14? Even if you did, that doesn't make you stop and think about other stuff too? By the time he "got on" he was 27 years old...that means, he had been doing crack for 13 years. HE WAS A CRACK ADDICT WHEN HE GOT SIGNED TO DEF JAM, PEOPLE. The story goes on to pretty much reveal that when he wasn't in jail, he was more or less a functioning crack addict. When things got so bad that he starting wilding out, that's when he was the crack addict you and I walk past on the street. His life was unbelievably sad and yes, I know there are TONS of people who live his life EVERY DAY...it's just...he's one of my favorite rappers and I had no idea that the passion coursing through his music was a result of his sociopathic behavior...induced by crack.

This got me to thinking about the music industry and how vile & disgusting they are. Yes, I KNOW his addiction is his "fault" and if he wants to be clean, he has to take the first step towards recovery. I know all of that but this isn't about pointing fingers and casting blame for how he got that way. My concern comes in here...because they felt he could make them shit loads of money, they ALLOWED him to be employed by Def Jam, KNOWING full and well, he was a crack addict. Let that be me or you smoking some weed and randomly getting drug tested...we're fired. However, not so much the case with Earl. I can't help feeling like they preferred him fucked up because THAT is when he made the best music. It is VERY sad to me and the least they could have done was say "Earl, we would love to work with you but you have to get clean first". I would LOVE to hear or read that they refused to work with him while he was on that shit but we know that isn't the case. They didn't do that for Jim Morrison, Jimi Hendrix, or The Beatles...so I really shouldn't be surprised that they wouldn't do it for today's musical talent.

So enter Scott "KiD CuDi" Mescudi...
He has recently been the topic of discussion regarding some showing out and cocaine use. I can honestly say that I will not be shocked if it ever comes out that he has been doing cocaine since he was a kid. I sincerely hope that isn't the case but after seeing DMX, nothing will shock me. However, I feel about Cudi's music how I did about DMX's and 2Pacs...it's infectious and I can't help feeling different with each track that Cudi flows on. 

I had to take him out of my cd changer in my truck because I could feel myself getting more depressed every day that I listened to him. My depression was from a shitload of stuff going on in my life right now that I don't really care to blog about here. However, listening to Cudi didn't help me feel any better. I could definitely relate to what he was saying but I was relating a little too much. I sincerely hope whatever he is going through to make such dark music does not send him spiraling out of control like DMX. From the outside looking in, it would be easy to say he's acting an ass because he's a celebrity but after watching Earl Simmons life story, I would never be so quick to judge. WE don't know why he can't get his emotional situation together. We can speculate but only he knows what's going on.

I love music...especially the kind that makes me FEEL...even more so, the kind that let's me know I'm not the only extreme nutcase on this planet. I hope people like Earl Simmons and Scott Mescudi recognize those who genuinely care about them and what they are doing to themselves. I guess that's all we can hope for at this point...

5 points of view:

phallatio said...

Successful record companies make a lot of money. Without money, they are unable to give fresh, young artists a break. So, if they have an artist making dollars, they leave well alone and allow him to do his thing, whether he is high or not. As you say, nobody bothered "cleaning-up" Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin and Jimi Hendrix. What would have been the point? They were making great music; if it ain't broke, don't try an' fix it! As a human being, I can't endorse this policy but, as a music lover, I can.

always4evamoi said...

oh wow...i didn't know...
i as well like DMX even though i could not listen to his music all the time....
when i hear situations like this, it truly makes me wonder: is the music or talent coming from the individual or the drug-induced individual? would he have been so famous if he was clean? was he only able to produce wonderful music after he was high? (i knew someone who's rap flowed after smoking weed; otherwise, he stuttered)...sigh...
i agree with what you said and hope that DMX finds
that peace within himself to stop hurting himself...
*sorry, don't know KID CUDI*

A.Smith said...

Being a good artist usually involves some sacrifice, I've decided.

Unfortunately, too many of "our" artists are sacrificing on a whole new level with the drugs and alcohol.

We excuse the weed cause it helps folks think (so they say) then you lace that mess with cocaine and what's next?

You hit on something discussing how Def Jam were implicit participants by not demanding he sober up before they would work with him and you can't tell me that implicit "ok" didn't make him think that maybe he really did need it.

Ultimately, as you day, Earl Simmons is responsible for Earl Simmons, but he had hella folks (including his ride or die chick) implicitly giving the thumbs up to his addiction. It's sad that his case isn't really all that uncommon.

One other thing: I love music that makes me feel. I love music BECAUSE it makes me feel. However, sometimes I feel bad because I feel like all the artists who really make me feel what they're saying (others from what you've already mention including Pink and Eminem) go through so much ish... like I'm benefitting from someone else's pain (then I remember they get pizzaid and I'm ok. lol)

AssertiveWit said...

phallatio: Babybottoms dad and I had a pretty in depth conversation about the music industry after watching the Behind the Music and we discussed EXACTLY what you just shared. It is sad, to me, that their contribution to the world has to be accompanied by so much internalized pain.

always4evamoi: I honestly think there are some people who are talented without influences and others can only reach that amazing level of talent when they have drugs in their system. I don't think he would have been as phenomenally moving if he was sober because he fed all his emotions into his anger. Being sober forces you to deal with your reality, no matter how terrible it is. I can understand why some people drown their sorrows in drugs...the flip side is, drowning pain in drugs doesn't make the problems go away. More often than not, it just makes things worse.

A. Smith: Any kind of substance that can affect how your nervous system usually runs can give people different perspectives on life. Especially if you're constantly tampering/experimenting with them. So the whole "weed helps me think better" isn't a crock of bs. For some, it turns them into a pile of nonproductive mush but if you are artistically inclined, it usually amplifies what you were already good at. No drug awareness advertisements are going to tell you that because the point is to keep you off of them LOL

I don't know if you've seen Get Him to the Greek but Diddy basically played himself in the movie and he told the main character that the public WANTS their entertainers fucked up because they perform the best that way. However, they don't want to see them TOO fucked up because it isn't entertaining anymore. They never want to see them sober because then...they just aren't that good. I laughed at that part of the movie but there is so much truth to that statement.

I did come to the conclusion this morning that the public DOES benefit off the pain of these entertainers. We become addicted to how they make us feel so much so that we forget they are real people with feelings too. They aren't super powered individuals who are immune to the emotional crap we go through every day. Except it is worse for them because EVERYTHING they go through is subjected to the scrutiny of the people who supposedly love them the most...their fans.

*stacie-ann said...

YEP. DMX IS A CRACK ADDICT. I DIDN'T KNO HE WAS ADDICTED TO CRACK I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST COCAINE. DAMN. DMX IS ONE OF MY FAV. RAPPERS TOO. I WAS JUST RECENTLY THINKING ABOUT HIM WONDERING WHEN HE'LL COME BACK OUT WITH ANOTHER RECORD. I FEEL HIS MUSIC TOO. HE GETS ME HYPE && HE GETS ME DEPRESSED AND DOWN TOO..ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS SMOKING WEED. OMG.

KID CUDI...I NEVER REALLY LISTENED TO HIM. I THINK I MIGHT TRY HIM OUT.

BUT YEP. THE INDUSTRY IS ALL SCREWED UP, FOR A QUICK BUCK THEY'LL PUT ANYBODY IN THE SPOTLIGHT...NO MATTER HOW FUKED UP YOU ARE....

kkkkk caps off. i didn't kno they were on that long. wow. i wasn't angry or anything just really liked this post :) teehee.

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