Yes, this is going to be a "woe is me" blog so if you aren't in the mood to read, move on to something else. However, I will be supplying laughs in lieu of cries so feel free to stick around and have a laugh...on me.
2009 will ALWAYS be the MOST memorable year of my LIFE. The first half of the year, I was adjusting to finding out I was pregnant at a MOST inconvenient time, watching my paycheck get sliced and diced so that other employees could keep their jobs, and moving way too many times than should be allowed.
Just when I thought I could breathe again, here comes Karma to kick my azz over something I'm sure I did but does "she" ever tell you WHAT you are being made to pay for? No. The seeds you sowed are now being reaped and your only job is to shut the hell up and roll with the punches. Although I called this a "woe is me" blog, please sincerely know, I am not in a corner feeling sorry for myself. I had my 5 REAL minutes of "why me" and got over it but it was tough.
It's tough to deal with this while being 30+ weeks pregnant (I made 32 weeks on Sunday; 8 more to go):
*the shower I DIDN'T want but was semi-coerced into having, yeah, some of the folks who "offered" to help out, didn't pull through so I had to cover the costs of things they volunteered to be responsible for...which is fine IF I had planned for that AND if the following didn't happen....
*almost EVERYONE RSVP'd...then the week of, MYSTERIOUSLY, they had other things come up
I understand that life happens and I am not saying anyone's life had to halt because my baby shower was this past weekend. What I am saying is please don't feed me lame excuses like because I'm pregnant I became retarded. If you've been everywhere in the world South of France (for the last year) up until the weekend of my baby shower, you're supposed to be "family", and then all of a sudden you can't make it to my shower due to transportation "issues", sorry, I just find that hard to believe. Especially when you decide to tell me the day before the shower. You hadn't planned on coming before the day you chose to send me a text message (for real? you can't even call me?); that's fine.
Another thing, I understand people have to make a living...if your job calls you in to work on the same day of something you RSVP'd to, hey, go get your money. But there is a reason you RSVP, especially when FOOD is involved. Head counts are instrumental, ESPECIALLY when you are pinching your pennies. So if 40 people RSVP and I go buy food for 40 people, I expect 40 people to be eating this food. If 20 or even 30 people only show, yes, I have a right to be upset. You've wasted my money simply because of your failure to communicate. You knew you had to work the minute they put you on the schedule so sending me a text telling me you remember my shower is today but what time is it cause you get off at 8 pm? Ummm, who EVER has a baby shower at 8? Go back to work and stop sending me asinine text messages please, thank you.
Those are just 2 examples...I've got more TRUST me LOL
*in the midst of trying to keep my head firmly screwed on, I got laid off 2 days before the baby shower
Yes, it is utterly pitiful for someone 8 months pregnant to be without a job. It isn't like I can get on my grind and go waitress. Right...and give birth in the middle of a food run as my ankles swell up to the size of elephant buttocks. Although it's discrimination, because I can't prove it, no one is going to hire me in this condition. I'm more or less ass out until November, when my womb has fully healed and my child is old enough to attend daycare. Who made up that 6 week rule? Damn doctors (that was sarcasm; I don't need any medical explanations as to why the baby needs to stay home for 6 weeks; I lost my job, not my mind...yet).
Are they discriminating against me? My "job"? Nope, please trust and BELIEVE if that was the kind of situation going on, me and Babybottoms would LEGALLY wipe their entire bank account clean for laying me off while pregnant. That just isn't the case. This isn't a personal vendetta against me so it's easier to laugh and joke about it than sit in the middle of the parking lot and pray for vengeance to be exacted on them.
Let's just say, I'm not the only one getting laid off and we'll leave it at that for now since I do have a "public" blog.
*my mom almost didn't make it
Due to Airtran being the idiotic mothersonsofbiotches that they are, they screwed up her flight arrangements and then tried to get in her pockets $1200 deep to fix it. Ain't no regular working class citizen got money like that, recession or not. Anywhom, my mom thinks she's Wonder Woman sometimes (like most "go hard" mommy's do) so she decides to drive from Texas to Georgia. Pandemonium and chaos ensues on this road trip and what should have been no more than a 14 hr ride (that's time included to get lost) turned into her on the road with my 12 yr old nephew for...20 hrs. She still didn't make it to my house until 1:35 pm on Saturday after leaving Texas on Friday at 8 am. My shower started at 2 pm....so yes, I was late to my own shower. By 15 minutes or so...
*haven't really slept since Wednesday of last week
and I probably won't until Sunday....when everyone (my family) will be back in their respective homes
There is however silver linings in these clouds of despair....
*Babybottoms got some WONDERFUL gifts from my family and the AWESOME friends who did follow through on their offerings
*My mom is still my mom, despite her tomfoolery on the road and has kept me from breaking down and crying a couple times since she's been here
*The baby shower turned out to be a lot better than what it was looking like and EVERYONE had a good time
*I still have no supplemental income but a few friends have been instrumental in coming up with good ideas of things to do from home so I don't have to unleash Babybottoms on the world right away
*Babybottoms dad is still probably one of the MOST supportive men I've ever met in my life. I think he's more so trying to make sure I don't go jump off a bridge somewhere but he's sacrificed comfy sleep more than a few times to make sure I was okay since all of this happened.
Despite the tragedy that is my life at the moment, I am happy I do have the simple moments of happiness I am getting here and there. So...with all that being said (here comes the shameless self plug), if you have any shreds of decency in your heart, you'll point me in the direction of money should you see some and/or a job fitting for someone in my condition.
(I had to laugh at that myself LOL)