a. A guiding source
b. A source of inspiration
I have been told on several occasions that I was someones muse. Each time it feels just as weird as the first time hearing it because in my life, I've only had one muse. I remember what I felt when I realized I needed to feed off of this persons energy to continue with what I was trying to accomplish. They made me BELIEVE in what I was doing and trying to accomplish. The bad thing about it though is that because they are your source of inspiration, if things ever sour between you, whether it be for a few days, months, or years, the inspiration dies and so does whatever you were working on.
I often look at that "work" I was so intently submerged in and wonder if I can get another muse to inspire me to complete it and I know that cannot happen. It has to be that same muse. Sometimes I get angry as I stare at my unfinished project because I wish I could have gotten through it without a muse but it is a work of art in itself that only that muse could have inspired.
I realized that I would have to develop a certain level of closeness and trust with someone to even reach that level of inspiration again. My muse would listen as though my voice was music to their ears and then inspire me to create more. Truly phenomenal person, that muse is/was. I felt invincible as long as I had an email/text/IM or phone call from my muse. Invincible in my work, that is.
This "work" I speak of will one day be finished and come to fruition for the rest of the world to partake in but I know I can't do it without my muse....